crazy assed day

So my bf and i are getting closer and closer each day. Although e are long distance I feel us growing together like we are wrapped in a cocoon but since hes far away no one sees this. When I tell people how close and serious we are they don't understand.

I never thought Id meet a guy. Not because I thought I couldn't, I just never thought I would. Only when I got older did even I start dating online. I went out ton but with no success but for awhile I just enjoyed it. I always felt I had to many skeletons in my closet. But things change. I guess as you gt older some skeletons shrink. My life thats a complete fools existence is still the same. Whatever can go wrong will go wrong but it seems less important. I do not think I'm in love, everyone says I am but I think it is not something you are told.

I really just hada few things I wanted to get off my mind today... there we go

learning the machine/Mini Pack

Le I was sick with nerves from yesterday till this morning my knitting lesson on the machine. So, we get there and I brought all the million pieces down and out to the car in a million trips but I didn't have the manuals and the old lady instructor("900") to start on me about it " well.... I told you to bring them".."well.. well..".

With the change of the seasons, I'm getting a cold or something, so I brought my old lady tissues ( the mini pack) in my purse, because my nose is constantly running I think the mini tissue pack worked like kryptonite of some sort on 900! When she saw the old lady pack of tissues she knew to lay off, I was down with the granny knitting club!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just needed the skill.900 did reprimand my mum sorta which was so funny I could barely stay on my seat and not laugh and roll around on the floor,she got pissed. 900 was off in the corner so no reaction from her but I felt great. The knitting using this machine is super-duper complicated but, three hours later I can now make a rectangle sorta! TA-DA. I think, as you get more and more into it,it becomes more mathematic. For now I need to stick with and master the damn rectangle and I should be okay to move fwd. We were there for three hours and she charged me way less than she had told me on the phone. This proved that she had come around to loving me, after she saw my true interest in learning this thing. Maybe I'll have mittens made for me next time by my teacher.

hilarious, yet true.

I missed the iphone4 free bumper

I finally decided that I do, in fact have a call drop issue on my (glorious) Iphone4. I went to two stores trying to get a bumper and was guided to an ap for the phone to order it. The app is not there so I looked into it. You only had until Sept 22 to get the free bumper and then it is $29!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is now the jump of October and I am s-o-l. I'm pretty pissed about this and do not see why, just because I am late I cannot get a bumper. I have had every iphone since the onset and love them all but this really bums me out. Not sure why this is so stupid.

edit: I called and they're sending me one, but it was not without a frikking loooong phone call and dealing with a mo ron for like 40 min. nothing is ever easy.

It is all for the troops

I have a huge heart for the guys and guys over in Afghanistan. It is like my *cause*, if you like. So, this being my cause, I decided to Adopt a Soldier. I signed up for a soldier and 24 hrs later i got the address of a woman, not being able to read the #s and everything I was not sure where she was stationed, and we are sworn to not tell since many soldiers are in secret locations. The email said she needed feminine products, toothbrush, toothpaste, magazines, incidentals. I thought this was so sad and set out to the dollar store to pick up this crap. I got a huge priority mail box and I wanted to make it fun. I picture a filthy girl in the heat, jumping walls and hiding behind boulders, Like GI Jane. But still a girl at heart. So I wrapped up everything separately in colored cray paper (?). I thought; let each piece be a surprise. So I sent the package after filling out a bazillion papers.

I waited, after a few weeks i got a letter. I was so excited to hear from my "adoptee", I knew any girl would be so happy to receive a package of girly stuff so I was ecstatic.

I opened the letter and it apparently was from a woman not in the field. She works in an office involved in the war and is deployed but gets a nice check bi-weekly! wtf! Shes a virtual gopher- no fatigues, nothing! I spent all that money on a woman who has soap and shampoo and told me it was "unnecessary although she appreciated THE EFFORT" and she didn't know who put her on the list to be adopted. This chick probably makes more money than me.

MISSION ABORTED...

I bbq with gas

Believe it or not. I met a guy. Yes it was at a concert. yes, it was through a freak show common friend but hes cool. We met in June and have spent much time together. He lives in Southern RI so it is a pain in the ass to go visit constantly but I'm also excited and he is worth it. He has a great job and a huge family, I have met them all and everyone of his friends knows about me. I have changed my Facebook status! but he hasn't. At first I was wondering why he had not changed his. We spoke about it and he said that everyone that is important to him knows about me so there is no point. Then i read this blog (http://techromance-jewels.blogspot.com/2010/09/facing-up-to-your-break-up-on-facebook.html) from a chick who seems normal(@techromanceblog) and it put it all in perspective. Most chicks want a label, they want to take what they have and put it in a tiny box.Most times it becomes that box they want to get out of.
I am not giving romance advice here because I, thus far, am happy. If you read my other posts you will see I have had so many losers it could make a lesbian.

*Boi* and I sat on the beach and met an older couple who were so cool, in love and funky, we spoke to them for quite a while while I grilled on the makes-shift campground bbq. When they left I commented that they were cool and fun, even in an older age. Boi turned to me and smooched my cheek and said; " I hope we are like that."

yup, I melted. How could anyone be so sweet. Did I deserve this, could it be as right as it felt. Now, months later I read these single lady blogs and I want to scream "it'll happen!!!" that old, idiotic saying "when you least expect it!" is true. yes as birthdays pass a slight anxiety creeps but it will, have faith. These women are great writers and creative hearts, who wouldn't sweep that up?

I can't say that I have fallen 100% for Boi but he is moving to Boston and going to do a grad program at BU(ick). I'm not sure when he is moving , I do not ask questions. I do not want to be a pest. I try to be aware of my behavior. When I generally joke ON my friends and visa-versa, I know he is too soft for that, so I don't. Once you grow feelings it is easier to *check yo'self* I think.

I plan to blog more. I hope Im not overly positive here lol.
on aside; I didnt know charcoal had to let the fire die before cooking so the burgers were good but I looked like a pinhead when I cooked andn they kept asking" doesn't the fire have to die down first?"

those look like UFC gloves

So I had my successful date but I was told that you just keep going. I knew this would be confusing for me fast but i would try. I am not the type to go out lots unless its with my girlfriends. If I have to be on this new*game*, then I need to be careful and no fun really. So, I cruised okcupid. A completely awesome option they have is" who's viewed me" which virtually means that you can look at who has been peeping your profile.

At first when I would message people and see they looked at my profile but I had not heard back, then my feelings would be dented. But Laurie( yes, again), told me that they don't always reply right then, wait a few days. Although my feelings find it hard to wait, she was right. Some people would reply later. I guess maybe they just popped on maybe the mobile ap for a second but didn't have time to reply.

So I saw this very very good looking guy had been looking at my profile. Someone completely my"type". So I messaged the guy and he messaged me back. So we messaged back and forth for a long time until I finally made him email me on my gmail. For some reason he didn't want to do that but whatever. So I had to hit at this kid to ask me out. I was looking for his pictures and he had on boxing gloves. so I asked about it and it turns out this kid is a "professional" cage fighter----HOT. So we plan to go out but he has no license or ID, he had lis license taken from drunk driving. Totally lame but I was still going to go out. So I pick him up at the T( how lame). He is HOT minus the black eye he has! (omg)

So we go to this bar. I had to try to think of a good local bar because we wanted to watch the playoff game but he also couldn't be carded and although hes 30 he looked young because hes so clean cut. When we get in the car it is comfy immediately, no weirdness so I go to the bar and we drive around looking for parking forever. Finally we are up at the bar and I drink my beer and he drinks budlight metal bottle with lime(serious!). He's pounding beers to the point of me telling him to order water. I want to find out about the Cage fighting before he was too drunk so it iends up hes been in 2 fights and lost both. Sounded like backyard bull$hit although I know it wasn't. He told me he had tons of fans and groupies before we met. I wanted to be liike "oh really, with two fights?" but I didnt, I amtrying to learn to not be like that butwhat and idiot!Which he says no so I order it. I kind of like that feisty attitude so we start kissing at the bar and things got heavy but not too sketch. I guess we were just drunk. This is a definite okcupid/onlinedating NO NO but when I picked him up with the black eye I sort of realized I grew up. I could be physically very attracted to this kid but in the long run he isn't for me. In the past, I would try and make him for me and accept the bad, but now I see there is no good. Especially after we started talking about the book 'Shutter Island' and I asked if he read it and he said "yeah, about 69 times in jail." um...ok

beer please...

so I have my legs up leaning on him and we are just kissing and totally PDA, which I am not into but hes just a turn on. So it's getting late and he had to take the subway home. So I told him he could stay at my house! So he says okay. So I get our tab. It was $110 and he gave me $40! what an ahole. So, I run the rest on my card and tell him i have to pee. I'm still convincing myself this is okay. I come out of the ladies room and he isn't there, so I look all over then I go downstairs and its huge and I'm looking all over. The bar was packed due to the game so I'm looking all over. Finally, I go outside since I am parked in front and he is standing outside. I was mad. The dude completely took off on me! So we get in the car and I am driving and were just chatting and being dumb and I pull up to the subway station! somehow my inner compass worked! Instead of taking the hottie badboy to my bed I dropped him at the subway. So when he realized I was dropping him at the subway. He stormed out of the car. somehow, instead of being pissy, I just threw it in drive and went home. Maybe i am growing up and getting better. Even bad dates can still be lessons if they are looked at correctly.

wow- Im deep

Also makes the stupid negatives of date #1 look piddly.

I parked illegally for you

The day of my date came. I found myself being excited. I didn't know what to wear. I really wear sundresses everyday but Laurie9 I think) told me don't wear a dress unless you usually do because it can be too much. But I do wear them often so I chose a typical one, not sexy really, more everyday and put it with a cardigan to maybe make it "daily". I get to the bar at 6:00. I am a stickler for being on time. I even put it in my profile. I'm very responsible with being on time. I see being late as complete disrespect , making someone wait on me or vis-versa.

I go into the pub, it is packed from Celtics playoffs starting later that night. immediately the sky opens and it starts to pour out, summer showers. Is it a sign?

So I order a beer, and drink it fast. now it is 6:20, where is he so I sent a txt and said were I was in the packed bar so he can find me. So he texts me he is running late. So, I am so upset. I decide 6:42 I will leave or two beers, whichever comes first. After the decision is made i get my beer and hang.

As I am finishing my beer, I am signaling the bartender and I see him come in("Kevin"), Hes really big and soaking wet! I wave and am a little bit like;'oh my goodness, huge and wet', he comes over and i give him a side hug/kiss on cheek and pull out the chair next to me. All the nervousness is gone in five seconds so he orders a beer and we smile. But I'm frustrated about the time. He sees this immediately and tells me I was an hr early so I am like "no no no", I glad my phone and load the okcupid (iphone)ap and he was right! I was an hour early! I am a total ahole. So we get beers and talk for awhile. The convo is easy easy and he is hilarious and has the cutest accent.

Laurie has a rule of a 50 min meeting. The first time meeting a stranger off a dating site is that;"meeting", I wanted to follow this but it was all a mess and he was in the pouring rain for so long and soaking wet and things were finally smooth. "they always seem smooth" she says. But they did. So we continued having beers and the bartender liked me so it was cool he was talking with us too and it was just very laid back and I didn't drink too much which is a general error I make. The Celtics came on and i was trapped. We were there for the game Kevin isn't into sports so I yelled and cheered myself, it was great fun. As the game came to a close, we decided to leave. He was a riot and had an adorable accent and was leaning on my bar stool and our body's went from on point ad unknowing to more comfy. So we left the bar, Celtics lost(boo) and he wanted to walk me to my car(aw). So we walk up to my illegally parked car- NO TICKET! so I give him a hug and a little kiss and said goodnight. Everything was smooth, it was fun. My only concern was the weight. he is super tall, super sweet and love the accent but whats with the weight? When I got home he text messaged me he had a great time and sent me his email. I replied that i did as well and thank you for paying, which was so nice. SUCCESS!?